Ramblings of Me

I sit here in my  loneliness Shedding these dark tears I want to feel you with me But all I can do is fear That you are gone for good To never to come back again The love we once had Has now come to an end But the ray of light shines bright For you're there by my side You came back to me You couldn't say goodbye I am back in these strong  arms Forever I will stay You are my love my lifetime And I will love you everyday

I have loved you for a lifetime I will a lifetime more You are my knight in shining armor And you held me once more As I watch you sleeping In this old house we call home I remember the early days When we first fell in love I will love you always And forever I will be yours Just take me in your arms And love me once more

Silence echoes through the Darkness Screaming in my ears. The deafening sound silence makes Brings the burning tears. Silence echoes through the Darkness Making it hard to think. The louder the silence gets The worse the pain it seems. Silence echoes through the Darkness Screaming through my ears Silence echoes through the Darkness Will the silence ever end?

The light receded into darkness, making the shadows grow. Giving way to the fear of the blackness below. The deep, dark night slowly rose, making it hard to breathe. Gasping for air, the light gave in letting the darkness heed. At the striking of the midnight hour, the shadow fell into place. The quietness of the shadows made the light give it's space. As the hours rolled on, the dark gave in allowing the light to breathe. The light peeked out of the shadows where it took it's final heed.

Lying here staring at the four blank walls Drowning in the silence Breathing in one sharp breath Praying for redemption Holding back tears that want nothing more than to fall The broken sobs, breaking through Needing the release The sharp intake of breath Praying for control Fighting off the urge to scream into the night Wanting, for one moment, a small ray of light Unable to hold it back You scream and scream and scream As the last echo of screaming drifts The light breaks though for a brand new day To do it all again The endless cycle that has become A living nightmare, it seems The smiling face everyone sees Is just a painted expression it weaves For as night draws near You know you are bound To relive the silence again

Why the journey, why the thought Reliving the words of when we fought Sitting here thinking, thinking so loud So loud that it deafens out all other sound Wishing and hoping to take it all back That whispering scream that this is the last Wondering how we took it this far How did we let this drift us apart Drifting at sea with no course of direction The thought of losing that protection Pleading and praying for us to go back Back to a time with happiness in tact Please don't let this be the end Maybe this is just a change in the wind

Thunder rolling in the distance Lightening streaks across the sky As you watch the storm move in It calms all of your cries You smell her coming Feel her near Longing to make her presence known As one strike bleeds into the next You await her angry wrath Her beauty ever changing Amazing to the eyes You anxiously wait For the next Heavenly strike With an ominous feeling Knowing you can't control Her rage screaming at you Yelling loud and clear Yet you can't avert your eyes From the beauty she bestows With one final warning She unleashes everything you hoped As the rain falls hard And the storm moves on You realize Another rainy day it's not Because with one fell swoop She washed all the sadness away

Why do you love me? I am no good for you Why do you want me? I can't be who you once knew Why do you care? I am not the person for you What's the draw? What's the lure? Am I just a sickness for which is no cure? You breathe life in me I take your life away All the love you give I just throw it all away It's not that I want to hurt you It's not that I don't care I don't believe in myself enough To ever believe it's real I am a work in progress Flawed to the core If I push away Pull me back Don't give up on me I don't know what I'd do

So, for those that know me, know that I am a closest poet.  Well, I like to write poetry.  I don't think that I would necessarily call me a poet.  Anywho, I wrote this the end of last week.  Just now getting around to getting it up here.  Also, I will eventually get all of my poems over here.  They are kinda scattered all over the place. Disclaimer:  This is not my favorite.  I can't seem to get it to flow right, of course, it might just be me.  I am a perfectionist at these things.   So, without further ado, here goes. I love the way you laugh when your amused I love the way you pick on my chubby toes I love the way you shake your head and grin at my flusteredness I love the way your eyes twinkle when you talk about the games you play I even love your stupid jokes I love the way you make me smile even when I want to cry I love the way you rub my back to calm my silent sobs I love the way we can scream, shout, and walk awa...